I'm a February girl. So beberapa kawan2 yang juga tarikh lahirnya jatuh dalam bulan Feb i akan ingat. Esp those from my high school; Marhalis, Asnidar & Eijeen. Also Sharidan. Happy Birthday to you guys too. I didnt expect anyone to remember my bday, no big deal. So I was surprised getting wishes from some of my friends yang dah lama tak jumpa.
I'm not the celebrating type of person. But i felt a bit disappointed coz my hubby didn't give me any present. Sekeping kad pun tak bagi. Sekurang2 ajak I dinner kat luar ke, his treat...
My partner gave me a set of hand made glass. It was beautiful. Sekarang boleh la I cuba Martha's Stewarts cocktails/drinks recipe kalau ada guest datang rumah.
My eldest sis brought me cookies. Love it. Sayangnya ada 9 pieces only. I ate it all all by myself, except the last 4 pieces, kena share with my daughter.
CNY - this year I didn't get much oranges like last times. Or any angpow from anyone. Kalau dulu2 kerja makan gaji, my boss Peter Tan would give me angpow. Kalau raya puasa pun dia ada bagi jugak. But our transport contractor, Mr Lee the lorry driver, angpow dia lagi banyak. Limau 1 kotak. Kacang la. Ohh Mr Lee, I miss u. I miss my old boss too. Where are you now ahh Peter Tan? I want to write about u la later. Magnificent soul!
Year of the Rat! Tahun cari duit. I got a big nose. When I was nineteen, my MD's secretary Ms Gan told me that my big nose will bring me luck. Prosperity. Dah more than 12 years, I'm still far away even from 'comfortable'. maybe this year is the starting of it. Work hard... work hard...
Then, there's Valentine's Day. Tak pernah celebrate it, but always am aware of it. This morning dapat that VD wish from MAS. It was a pleasant surprise.
K wished me VD too. Almost at 12noon. What can i say? Hmmm...
My hubby? Didn't wish at all. Doesn't need to I guess, as he says, he loves me every single day...
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Permulaan Yang Baru
Aku ingin memulakan sesuatu semula
Tapi dari mana nak mulakan ya??
Bagaimana nak memulakannya semula ya??
Tapi dari mana nak mulakan ya??
Bagaimana nak memulakannya semula ya??
Thursday, January 17, 2008
For without you, I am lost..
SPEAK SOFTLY, LOVE
Andy Williams
Speak softly, love and hold me warm against your heart
I feel your words, the tender trembling moments start
We're in a world, our very own
Sharing our love that only few have ever known
Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one
Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love
Wine-colored days warmed by the sun
Deep velvet nights when we are one
Speak softly, love so no one hears us but the sky
The vows of love we make will live until we die
My life is yours and all because
You came into my world with love so softly love
Lagu2 yang takde kaitan dalam hidup I. Lovely songs.
Dah agak lama I didnt write anything here. So very hectic. Ntah apa yang sibuk sangat hari-hari. But today, here I am, wanting to write something but don't know how to go about it.
Guess I actually wanted to write here my feelings on what my partner just told me about. Her family wanted her to get married and settled down. The candidate is a friend of a family member. She will have to move away. I was driving and she sat next to me when she broke the news to me. Both were crying after that, for different reasons i reckon. She, for the thought of losing the love of her life. And me, for the thought of losing the love of my life. Huh? Macam sama? Cinta dia ialah pada kekasih dia yang tidak akan dia miliki sebagai teman hidup kerana berlainan agama. And the love of my life is her. The thought of not having her in my life terrifies me. How can I live without her? She's my strength. My angel. I was lost before I met her. I would be lost again without her.
I should be happy for her. I am happy for her. At last, dia akan ada tempat untuk bermanja. Dia akan ada seseorang untuk berkasih sayang, berkongsi hidup dan segalanya. Dia akan bahagia kerana akhirnya cita-citanya untuk memiliki seseorang dan dimiliki seseorang sebagai teman hidup akan tercapai. That's also my wish for her lah. If those craps do existlah.
I just cannot find the exact words to use to express my feelings. Somehow I think whoever reads this will get the picture that I am jealous or i take it negatively. I am sad, beyond sad. I am in the melancholy state. I dont think anyone have what I and her have. That special relationship we shared. She's more than a business partner, more than a friend, closer than a sister.
Bla bla bla...
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Keabadian Cinta
Lagu Keabadian Cinta nyanyian Anuar Zain. Semua lagu Anuar Zain I minat. Memang syahdu. Mengasyikkan. Lain-lain lagu Sesucinya Cintamu, Lelaki Ini, etc. Gambaran cinta yang diberikan memang indah2 belaka. Ironinya jarang dengar kisah cinta Anuar sendiri.
For myself, I don't believe in eternal love. The sweet and blissful type lah. Type yang where you gaze into each other's eyes and your heart goes thumping hard. Tak tau la, maybe sebab my parents are not that lovey duey type kot. They are loud. I tak pernah jumpa lagi face to face couple yang mcm ni walaupun dah lebih 10 tahun berkahwin (please God, don't let me meet one!).
I macam hati batu? Tak ada perasaan? Tak romantic? Hey, don't misinterpret me. I believe in love, just not the everlasting magical love tu. Hmmm.. mungkin tak la tak percaya kot. I kata macam tu sebab I jeles kot for those yang ada this kind of love. Cuma it does not exist for me. My friend Zuraima told me lepas dah kahwin, dia dan hubby dia, Zain, lagi deeply in love dari sebelum kahwin and now dekat 7 tahun if I'm not mistaken, the feelings are getting stronger. Lucky you, Ema!
***deleted 14/03/08***
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Love Story - But not mine
My partner is having problems in her relationship. Dia tak tahu hala tuju kisah cinta dia, apa penghujungnya. Very complicated sebab berlainan agama. I myself tak dapat nak menasihati dia apa-apa. Hell, my life pun upside down. Rationally, I patut cakap, 'Just forget him. Nanti you'll find someone else. Bla bla bla..'.
I tak nak membebel2 kat dia. I tak nak bagi nasihat kat dia. Bab2 CINTA ni, for me, just go with the flow. Ada cinta yang seminggu saja bersemi, tapi life-time akan diingati. Ada cinta yang 30 tahun dibaja, sekelip mata dilupakan. Nak menahan diri dari bercinta? What kind of life would that be?
So Partner, what ever you do, I'll be right here beside you. If you decide to end the relationship, I'll be your shoulder to cry on. If you decide to continue with it, even knowing he'll never be yours literally, I'll support your decision. If you decide you want to live without love, I'll be your teddy bear to hug thru your lonely times. (urgghh.. kita main scrabble je la ye?)
This one's for you, babe..
Friday, December 7, 2007
Previous Postings (2 of 2)
More postings from my other Blog (which I have deleted, don't ask why)
Dec 4, 2007 (Tuesday)
Love Story - Part 1
I can't really remember how many times I fell in love. Cinta monyet la, head over heels in love, or just a mere crush, semuanya indah rasanya. Eventhough kebanyakkannya one-sided aje, ha ha. Rasanya my first serious relationship, first boyfriend I ada, masa I umur 18 kot.
When I was fourteen, I had a crush on this boy, A. Dah tak ingat pun macam mana rupa dia. Notorious type. He knew I liked him, smiled at me and sometimes talked to me when no one's around. Tapi kalau ada org lain esp his gang, different story la. Jaga reputation dia kot. During school holidays, balik dari asrama, ada juga we talked on the phone a few times. It lasted for 2 years, ended when my very sociable classmate who is also one of my close friend told me that she and him were going out together and they kissed. I was not that disappointed lah. Sebab lepas tu masuk sekolah lain2.
Tingkatan 4, on my first day kat sekolah baru, I met this very nice guy, S. I suka sangat tengok his jaw. Tak nak tulis banyak2 pasal dia. He's an internet wizard, nanti dia jumpa pulak blog ni. Ha ha. Anyway, pernah tulis surat kat dia. Sampai sekarang I wondered what happened. Tak ingat kenapa stopped. Maybe sebab dia coupled dengan my friend kot. Yang ni memang I frust sangat bila dengar cerita2 about him and her. Everytime selisih dia, my classmates would sing me Tears On My Pillow, masa tu lagu tu top balik, Kylie Minogue menyanyi. Sampai Tingkatan 5 la.
You don't remember me, but I remember you
T'was not so long ago, you broke my heart in two
Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart
Caused by you
If we could start anew, I wouldn't hesitate
I'd gladly take you back,
and tempt the hand of fate
Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart
Caused by you
Love is not a gadget, love is not a toy
When you find the one you love
She'll fill your heart with joy
Pagi tadi masa having breakfast with my partner kat kedai makan, nampak kat TV3 ada la keluar budak2 sekolah pakai pakaian scout menyanyi lagu ni. Baru teringat balik.
Masa ambil SPM, I sat behind an innocent-looked boy. Macam budak baik aje rupa dia. Before that, I tak tau pun K exist kat boarding school I tu. So tiap kali nak pergi exam tu, berkobar2 la semangat. I senyum2 kat dia, dia pun senyum2 balik. Ingatkan dia tahu I syok kat dia, rupanya dia tak perasan I pun. Memang dia suka senyum kat semua orang kot.
Hmm.. who's next? Oh ye, then there was my first serious relationship started la. College years. Actually I dah berkawan dengan Z a few years before. Went serious for about 5 months aje, broke-off because I coupled with my best friend of 2 yrs, N, which lasted for 3 months je. During that time I was eyeing this one guy, J, my senior actually. Dah dekat 2 tahun baru I got the guts to talk to him. Liked him a lot. I'm not sure he shared the same feelings or not, fikir2 balik sekarang la. Dia ponteng kelas just to hang with me, padahal dia tak pernah ponteng seumur hidup dia. Innocent giler, lurus bendol. Tiga empat bulan aje rapat dengan dia, my friend 'snatched' him away. Why ya, this kind of things always happen to me?
Went back solo ntah berapa tahun. Once a while Z called or wrote to me. Masa dah 23, baru rapat dgn Z balik. Dia ni jenis tak faham2 bahasa. I halau dia berapa kali pun, dia muncul balik. Got married at 25. 2 days before akad nikah, terjumpa dgn J. My bestfriend kata that was a sign, Z bukan untuk I. I should go after J. Gila ke dia? My relatives dah berkampung dekat rumah I for the wedding. So Z is my hubby now, eventhough before kahwin lagi I dah bermasalah dengan Z ni dan tahu lepas kawin pun akan bermasalah.
Anyway, I dapat tahu J is no longer "innocent" macam dulu. Big time gay. No wonder la I selalu rasa dia sangat polite and gentleman. Seksi macam mana pun depan dia, tak pernah la dia pandang2 ke apa ke.. ha ha.. rupanya dia tak interested... may be dia anggap I mcm adik dia aje kot.
Dec 2, 2007 (Sunday)
Cyber Luv
Beberapa kali kebelakangan ni, I caught my hubby chatting on the internet with a lady. I asked him whether he knows how she looked like or her status, dia kata tak tau, kawan2 gitu je. Last nite I walked on him chatting with her again, on YM. Ada pic that lady sekali. Hmm... kalau tak buat salah apa2, kenapa nak tipu, nak sembunyi2? Kalau reason sbb tak nak menguris my feeling, then dont't do it when I'm around, or in our home. Patut la everytime I masuk bilik waktu dia on-line, dia marah2 atau cari pasal nak gaduh ngan I. Ganggu privacy dia agaknya.
Dan semalam, agaknya nak cover rasa guilty dia, dia terus marah2 I, kononnya I pemalas dan tak nak buat susu untuk anak I.
I'm cool with that. Tak payah la rasa bersalah kat I. So I sms him, malas nak bertekak mulut sbb for me whatever comes out from his mouth will be all rubbish. Unrelevant topic pun dia akan keluarkan, just to make me feel bad, as if I yang salah.
"I dun mind u nk berkwn dgn ppuan. Nk bcinta skali pun, pls go ahead. Tp jgn lyn I n anak u as if kami ni mengganggu urusan u atau masa u."
Dia mesti ingat I marah atau jeles psl lady tu. Honestly, I don't. Ntah berapa kali I wish he would fall for someone else. Let him find love with orang lain. Maybe then he'll realise kami memang tak serasi bersama. Without me, he can still be happy.
Actually, this is the second time. First time dulu about 2 years ago. He met this lady kat channel 15 Astro. Dia ni memang tak berapa pandai menipu. One nite ni, he started a fight, just as an excuse nak keluar rumah malam2. He came back around 2am. Dia memang tak pernah keluar rumah kalau tak bersama I. He doesn't like to hang out with his friends atau kawan sekerja. So i saje serkap jarang, told him that baju dia bau perfume. Terus he blurted out that he went out to meet that lady. They didn't do anything, just chatted inside the car. The lady was nice, with huge boobs according to him. Their relationship ended few weeks later. Tak ingat kenapa. But I told my hubby, if he's serious about that lady, I don't mind tolong pergi pinangkan perempuan tu untuk dia. But he has to let me go after that.
My hubby bukanlah orang yang tidak baik. He's a nice person, at least pada orang lain la. Maybe I yang tak sesuai jadi isteri dia. I couldn't be what he wants me to be. I've tried but memang tak boleh. I memang sayangkan dia. That's it. Yang lain2 tu, hanya perasaan tanggungjawab dan kasihan.
Dec 4, 2007 (Tuesday)
Love Story - Part 1
I can't really remember how many times I fell in love. Cinta monyet la, head over heels in love, or just a mere crush, semuanya indah rasanya. Eventhough kebanyakkannya one-sided aje, ha ha. Rasanya my first serious relationship, first boyfriend I ada, masa I umur 18 kot.
When I was fourteen, I had a crush on this boy, A. Dah tak ingat pun macam mana rupa dia. Notorious type. He knew I liked him, smiled at me and sometimes talked to me when no one's around. Tapi kalau ada org lain esp his gang, different story la. Jaga reputation dia kot. During school holidays, balik dari asrama, ada juga we talked on the phone a few times. It lasted for 2 years, ended when my very sociable classmate who is also one of my close friend told me that she and him were going out together and they kissed. I was not that disappointed lah. Sebab lepas tu masuk sekolah lain2.
Tingkatan 4, on my first day kat sekolah baru, I met this very nice guy, S. I suka sangat tengok his jaw. Tak nak tulis banyak2 pasal dia. He's an internet wizard, nanti dia jumpa pulak blog ni. Ha ha. Anyway, pernah tulis surat kat dia. Sampai sekarang I wondered what happened. Tak ingat kenapa stopped. Maybe sebab dia coupled dengan my friend kot. Yang ni memang I frust sangat bila dengar cerita2 about him and her. Everytime selisih dia, my classmates would sing me Tears On My Pillow, masa tu lagu tu top balik, Kylie Minogue menyanyi. Sampai Tingkatan 5 la.
You don't remember me, but I remember you
T'was not so long ago, you broke my heart in two
Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart
Caused by you
If we could start anew, I wouldn't hesitate
I'd gladly take you back,
and tempt the hand of fate
Tears on my pillow, pain in my heart
Caused by you
Love is not a gadget, love is not a toy
When you find the one you love
She'll fill your heart with joy
Pagi tadi masa having breakfast with my partner kat kedai makan, nampak kat TV3 ada la keluar budak2 sekolah pakai pakaian scout menyanyi lagu ni. Baru teringat balik.
Masa ambil SPM, I sat behind an innocent-looked boy. Macam budak baik aje rupa dia. Before that, I tak tau pun K exist kat boarding school I tu. So tiap kali nak pergi exam tu, berkobar2 la semangat. I senyum2 kat dia, dia pun senyum2 balik. Ingatkan dia tahu I syok kat dia, rupanya dia tak perasan I pun. Memang dia suka senyum kat semua orang kot.
Hmm.. who's next? Oh ye, then there was my first serious relationship started la. College years. Actually I dah berkawan dengan Z a few years before. Went serious for about 5 months aje, broke-off because I coupled with my best friend of 2 yrs, N, which lasted for 3 months je. During that time I was eyeing this one guy, J, my senior actually. Dah dekat 2 tahun baru I got the guts to talk to him. Liked him a lot. I'm not sure he shared the same feelings or not, fikir2 balik sekarang la. Dia ponteng kelas just to hang with me, padahal dia tak pernah ponteng seumur hidup dia. Innocent giler, lurus bendol. Tiga empat bulan aje rapat dengan dia, my friend 'snatched' him away. Why ya, this kind of things always happen to me?
Went back solo ntah berapa tahun. Once a while Z called or wrote to me. Masa dah 23, baru rapat dgn Z balik. Dia ni jenis tak faham2 bahasa. I halau dia berapa kali pun, dia muncul balik. Got married at 25. 2 days before akad nikah, terjumpa dgn J. My bestfriend kata that was a sign, Z bukan untuk I. I should go after J. Gila ke dia? My relatives dah berkampung dekat rumah I for the wedding. So Z is my hubby now, eventhough before kahwin lagi I dah bermasalah dengan Z ni dan tahu lepas kawin pun akan bermasalah.
Anyway, I dapat tahu J is no longer "innocent" macam dulu. Big time gay. No wonder la I selalu rasa dia sangat polite and gentleman. Seksi macam mana pun depan dia, tak pernah la dia pandang2 ke apa ke.. ha ha.. rupanya dia tak interested... may be dia anggap I mcm adik dia aje kot.
Dec 2, 2007 (Sunday)
Cyber Luv
Beberapa kali kebelakangan ni, I caught my hubby chatting on the internet with a lady. I asked him whether he knows how she looked like or her status, dia kata tak tau, kawan2 gitu je. Last nite I walked on him chatting with her again, on YM. Ada pic that lady sekali. Hmm... kalau tak buat salah apa2, kenapa nak tipu, nak sembunyi2? Kalau reason sbb tak nak menguris my feeling, then dont't do it when I'm around, or in our home. Patut la everytime I masuk bilik waktu dia on-line, dia marah2 atau cari pasal nak gaduh ngan I. Ganggu privacy dia agaknya.
Dan semalam, agaknya nak cover rasa guilty dia, dia terus marah2 I, kononnya I pemalas dan tak nak buat susu untuk anak I.
I'm cool with that. Tak payah la rasa bersalah kat I. So I sms him, malas nak bertekak mulut sbb for me whatever comes out from his mouth will be all rubbish. Unrelevant topic pun dia akan keluarkan, just to make me feel bad, as if I yang salah.
"I dun mind u nk berkwn dgn ppuan. Nk bcinta skali pun, pls go ahead. Tp jgn lyn I n anak u as if kami ni mengganggu urusan u atau masa u."
Dia mesti ingat I marah atau jeles psl lady tu. Honestly, I don't. Ntah berapa kali I wish he would fall for someone else. Let him find love with orang lain. Maybe then he'll realise kami memang tak serasi bersama. Without me, he can still be happy.
Actually, this is the second time. First time dulu about 2 years ago. He met this lady kat channel 15 Astro. Dia ni memang tak berapa pandai menipu. One nite ni, he started a fight, just as an excuse nak keluar rumah malam2. He came back around 2am. Dia memang tak pernah keluar rumah kalau tak bersama I. He doesn't like to hang out with his friends atau kawan sekerja. So i saje serkap jarang, told him that baju dia bau perfume. Terus he blurted out that he went out to meet that lady. They didn't do anything, just chatted inside the car. The lady was nice, with huge boobs according to him. Their relationship ended few weeks later. Tak ingat kenapa. But I told my hubby, if he's serious about that lady, I don't mind tolong pergi pinangkan perempuan tu untuk dia. But he has to let me go after that.
My hubby bukanlah orang yang tidak baik. He's a nice person, at least pada orang lain la. Maybe I yang tak sesuai jadi isteri dia. I couldn't be what he wants me to be. I've tried but memang tak boleh. I memang sayangkan dia. That's it. Yang lain2 tu, hanya perasaan tanggungjawab dan kasihan.
Previous Postings (1 of 2)
Below are postings from my other Blog, which I transferred here.
Nov 27 - Little Henry
Last week a friend of mine tanya, nak tengok pic his Thierry Henry tak? My response was "Sapa tu?"
My "Sapa tu?" wasn't like "Who's YOUR Thierry Henry?". I've never heard of that name before. Bila I dah dapat tengok pic tu, I still have no idea who's Henry. It was a pic of my friend's cute son, Aqeef, wearing a jersey with no 14, and written on it "Barcelona".
Two days ago, I read Papa Aqeef's blog. The same pic he sent to me was there. Baru teringat pasal nama Henry Thierry tu. I had to use google to look up for that guy. Oooohhh.. pemain Barcelona... so what? Rasanya ramai lagi orang kot yang macam I, tak ambil peduli pasal dunia sukan ni. I tak baca sangat pun, tengok sekali imbas je.
Malam tadi I tengok TV. Ada TV commercial pisau cukur Gillette. There he was again... that Thierry guy. One whole world kenal dia agaknya. Am I the only person tak pernah dengar nama dia? I am so ignorant. I hanya ambil peduli tentang dunia kecil I ni. Tak pe lah. Memang I shallow. It's okay, my partner pun probably tak kenal dia. Like me, dia pun tak baca newspaper, or watch news on TV. Atau lain2 bahan bacaan mcm URTV, Mangga and any other craps seumpamanya. Her world knowledge pun sepatutnya secetek I kot...
Pagi tadi I asked my partner, "Awak kenal Henry Thierry?"
"Pemain bola tu ke? Barcelona kot. Thierry Henry la.."
I AM SO SHALLOW!!! At least she got his name right!!!...
Nov 25, 2007 (Sunday) - You Light Up My Life
So many nights I sit by my window
Waiting for someone to sing me his song
So many dreams I kept deep inside me
Alone in the dark but now You've come along
You light up my life
You give me hope To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song
Rollin' at sea, adrift on the water
Could it be finally I'm turning for home?
Finally, a chance to say hey, I love You
Never again to be all alone
You light up my life
You give me hope To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song
You light up my life
You give me hope To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song
It can't be wrong
When it feels so right
'Cause You You light up my life
Penyanyi asal Debbie Boone. Tapi version Leanne Rimes pun sedap juga. Well Partner, since you want so much me writing about you, nah! I dedicate this song to you.
Me and my partner met somewhere around August 2005. Masa tu kerja sama-sama. Terus klik sampai sekarang. I call her partner bcoz she's my business partner. She's more than that actually. My friend, my family, my personal assistant, my diary, my everything lah. What ever I want her to be, dia ada. I'm so thankful that I am blessed with this friendship. Sometimes i can be very difficult and so annoying, itu pun dia tak komplen. Tapi adalah la jugak sekali dua tu dia kata kalau nak merajuk, merajuk la, dia tak nak pujuk. So tak berani la I nak merajuk ngan dia (Huh!). Paling best, she's so damn crazyyyy. Suits me fine.
Not feeling well today. Nanti ada mood I tulis lagi about my partner. Nak cari lagu lain dulu.
Nov 24 - My Dream Lover
Isn't he handsome? Just look at the butt!!
Facts At A Glance
CAR: Toyota Hilux pick-up range
ENGINE: 2.5-litre D-4D common rail diesel 102bhp
WHEELBASE: 3,085mm
Tak tahu kenapa I suka lah sangat kat kenderaan ni. Dah tak nak pandang yang lain kalau Hilux lalu depan mata I. Kalau I ada banyak duit and can afford to buy any car, I would definitely go for this one. No BMWs, No Mercedes. I only want this, the 6th generation Hilux by Toyota.
Nov 22 - Words (Don't Come Easy To Me)
Kenapa I tulis Blog?
It's not like I'm going to share it with anyone. Maybe just with my partner.
Maybe bcoz everybody is doing it.
I am not good with words. I have problems expressing myself, both in words and actions. People always interpret me wrongly. Can't really blame them.
I don't feel comfortable talking to people actually. Kalau hal-hal berkaitan kerja, urusan PR ni I hand over to my partner. I rather do administration work, dealing with paperworks lagi senang dari dealing with human beings. Kalau kena cakap2 dengan org ni, I rasa my words selalu sekat tengah jalan. Selalu I tak dapat habiskan my sentence. Notice tak, my sentences semuanya pendek2 aje? Maybe bcoz I'm a shallow person. But hey, I think I can beat anybody easily in a game of scrabble. Kan Partner? Out of ten games, maybe sekali je my partner wins. Tu pun sebab I kesian. Nanti kalau selalu sangat Partner kalah, tak nak main lagi dengan I.
I have a lot of words in my mind but I can't seem to put them in sentence.
Dulu masa zaman high school, I was in the ICU class for B.Melayu subject. I was a hopeless case lah especially masuk bab2 sajak and prosa klasik nih. English is a different story. Ntah mana ya I belajar? Maybe sebab banyak sangat dengar lagu-lagu inggeris ni.
Sekarang ni even worst. I don't talk much. In my line of duty, tak perlu banyak berkomunikasi. ye lah since everything I pass to my Partner to do it. Hari- hari I hanya berkomunikasi dengan my partner and my workers. And with my family members. Oh ye, my workers are all Indonesians. I listen to Indo songs now, including dangdut. Soon I'' be talking like my workers.
Nov 21 - Killing Me Softly
Strumming my pains with his fingers
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song...
Yeah, another lovely song, this time by Fugees. But originally by Roberta Flack. Still feeling blue.I am going crazy at this moment. Since my partner is out of the office, I have no one to pour my heart out. K is online (YM) right now. I don't have the strength to delete his ID from my messenger list, yet. So I just stared at my screen, tengok aje nama dia. Sweet yellow smiley. Dari pagi tadi. Lepas balik dari lunch kejap tadi, tengok he's still there. Dia tengah dengar lagu. Why wudn't he go away? Why cudn't i delete his name? Tu kan lagi mudah?
Nov 20 - Feeling Blue
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Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apa pun terjadi
Ku janjikan aku ada..
Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun ku percaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
dan Takkan pernah melepasku
Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apa pun terjadi
Ku janjikan aku ada..
My first posting. And all I can think about is to share the lyric of this beautiful song by Once (Aku Mahu) here. My fav at the moment. Maybe bcoz I'm feeling blue right now.
Nov 27 - Little Henry
Last week a friend of mine tanya, nak tengok pic his Thierry Henry tak? My response was "Sapa tu?"
My "Sapa tu?" wasn't like "Who's YOUR Thierry Henry?". I've never heard of that name before. Bila I dah dapat tengok pic tu, I still have no idea who's Henry. It was a pic of my friend's cute son, Aqeef, wearing a jersey with no 14, and written on it "Barcelona".
Two days ago, I read Papa Aqeef's blog. The same pic he sent to me was there. Baru teringat pasal nama Henry Thierry tu. I had to use google to look up for that guy. Oooohhh.. pemain Barcelona... so what? Rasanya ramai lagi orang kot yang macam I, tak ambil peduli pasal dunia sukan ni. I tak baca sangat pun, tengok sekali imbas je.
Malam tadi I tengok TV. Ada TV commercial pisau cukur Gillette. There he was again... that Thierry guy. One whole world kenal dia agaknya. Am I the only person tak pernah dengar nama dia? I am so ignorant. I hanya ambil peduli tentang dunia kecil I ni. Tak pe lah. Memang I shallow. It's okay, my partner pun probably tak kenal dia. Like me, dia pun tak baca newspaper, or watch news on TV. Atau lain2 bahan bacaan mcm URTV, Mangga and any other craps seumpamanya. Her world knowledge pun sepatutnya secetek I kot...
Pagi tadi I asked my partner, "Awak kenal Henry Thierry?"
"Pemain bola tu ke? Barcelona kot. Thierry Henry la.."
I AM SO SHALLOW!!! At least she got his name right!!!...
Nov 25, 2007 (Sunday) - You Light Up My Life
So many nights I sit by my window
Waiting for someone to sing me his song
So many dreams I kept deep inside me
Alone in the dark but now You've come along
You light up my life
You give me hope To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song
Rollin' at sea, adrift on the water
Could it be finally I'm turning for home?
Finally, a chance to say hey, I love You
Never again to be all alone
You light up my life
You give me hope To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song
You light up my life
You give me hope To carry on
You light up my days and fill my nights with song
It can't be wrong
When it feels so right
'Cause You You light up my life
Penyanyi asal Debbie Boone. Tapi version Leanne Rimes pun sedap juga. Well Partner, since you want so much me writing about you, nah! I dedicate this song to you.
Me and my partner met somewhere around August 2005. Masa tu kerja sama-sama. Terus klik sampai sekarang. I call her partner bcoz she's my business partner. She's more than that actually. My friend, my family, my personal assistant, my diary, my everything lah. What ever I want her to be, dia ada. I'm so thankful that I am blessed with this friendship. Sometimes i can be very difficult and so annoying, itu pun dia tak komplen. Tapi adalah la jugak sekali dua tu dia kata kalau nak merajuk, merajuk la, dia tak nak pujuk. So tak berani la I nak merajuk ngan dia (Huh!). Paling best, she's so damn crazyyyy. Suits me fine.
Not feeling well today. Nanti ada mood I tulis lagi about my partner. Nak cari lagu lain dulu.
Nov 24 - My Dream Lover
Isn't he handsome? Just look at the butt!!
Facts At A Glance
CAR: Toyota Hilux pick-up range
ENGINE: 2.5-litre D-4D common rail diesel 102bhp
WHEELBASE: 3,085mm
Tak tahu kenapa I suka lah sangat kat kenderaan ni. Dah tak nak pandang yang lain kalau Hilux lalu depan mata I. Kalau I ada banyak duit and can afford to buy any car, I would definitely go for this one. No BMWs, No Mercedes. I only want this, the 6th generation Hilux by Toyota.
Nov 22 - Words (Don't Come Easy To Me)
Kenapa I tulis Blog?
It's not like I'm going to share it with anyone. Maybe just with my partner.
Maybe bcoz everybody is doing it.
I am not good with words. I have problems expressing myself, both in words and actions. People always interpret me wrongly. Can't really blame them.
I don't feel comfortable talking to people actually. Kalau hal-hal berkaitan kerja, urusan PR ni I hand over to my partner. I rather do administration work, dealing with paperworks lagi senang dari dealing with human beings. Kalau kena cakap2 dengan org ni, I rasa my words selalu sekat tengah jalan. Selalu I tak dapat habiskan my sentence. Notice tak, my sentences semuanya pendek2 aje? Maybe bcoz I'm a shallow person. But hey, I think I can beat anybody easily in a game of scrabble. Kan Partner? Out of ten games, maybe sekali je my partner wins. Tu pun sebab I kesian. Nanti kalau selalu sangat Partner kalah, tak nak main lagi dengan I.
I have a lot of words in my mind but I can't seem to put them in sentence.
Dulu masa zaman high school, I was in the ICU class for B.Melayu subject. I was a hopeless case lah especially masuk bab2 sajak and prosa klasik nih. English is a different story. Ntah mana ya I belajar? Maybe sebab banyak sangat dengar lagu-lagu inggeris ni.
Sekarang ni even worst. I don't talk much. In my line of duty, tak perlu banyak berkomunikasi. ye lah since everything I pass to my Partner to do it. Hari- hari I hanya berkomunikasi dengan my partner and my workers. And with my family members. Oh ye, my workers are all Indonesians. I listen to Indo songs now, including dangdut. Soon I'' be talking like my workers.
Nov 21 - Killing Me Softly
Strumming my pains with his fingers
Singing my life with his words
Killing me softly with his song
Killing me softly with his song...
Yeah, another lovely song, this time by Fugees. But originally by Roberta Flack. Still feeling blue.I am going crazy at this moment. Since my partner is out of the office, I have no one to pour my heart out. K is online (YM) right now. I don't have the strength to delete his ID from my messenger list, yet. So I just stared at my screen, tengok aje nama dia. Sweet yellow smiley. Dari pagi tadi. Lepas balik dari lunch kejap tadi, tengok he's still there. Dia tengah dengar lagu. Why wudn't he go away? Why cudn't i delete his name? Tu kan lagi mudah?
Nov 20 - Feeling Blue
Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
Dan anggap ku tak ada
Tapi tak kan merubah perasaanku
Kepadamu
Ku yakin pasti suatu saat
Semuakan terjadi
Kaukan mencintaiku
Dan tak akan pernah Melepasku
Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apa pun terjadi
Ku janjikan aku ada..
Kau boleh jauhi diriku
Namun ku percaya
Kau kan mencintaiku
dan Takkan pernah melepasku
Aku mau mendampingi dirimu
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu
Apa pun terjadi
Ku janjikan aku ada..
My first posting. And all I can think about is to share the lyric of this beautiful song by Once (Aku Mahu) here. My fav at the moment. Maybe bcoz I'm feeling blue right now.
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